Back in the game again...

I’m having such a hard time concentrating at work today! First and foremost, I’m exhausted… we went to the Trans Siberian Orchestra concert last night and didn’t get home until midnight-ish. I’m too old for that! :-) It was a very good concert, but I do have to say that my favorite part was the light show. Wow, wow, wow! It was like nothing I had ever seen before. Absolutely amazing! Alex loves them so we took him and went with our neighbors. Of course, once we got home, Alex had to do homework so it was after 1am before we went to bed!

The second reason I’m having a hard time concentrating is because I’m letting myself get EXCITED about these accreditation rumors! Oh my goodness, oh my goodness! Rumor has it 12 agencies are being issued accreditation and they can expect their certificates in the next 2 weeks. Our agency hasn’t said that exactly… but…. I’m doing my best to read between the lines!

It has been about 3 months since I’ve been able to get excited about this adoption! I'm back!!! For the first time in those 3 months I’ve started thinking of my lists again – things to pack, things to buy, things to do. This weekend, I think I might actually DO some of those things. Now, now… I need to reel myself in. This accreditation could or could not happen. That fabulous saying “Anything can happen” is the motto of my life. I keep trying to tell myself to chill out, but can’t a girl get a little excited about something she’s been waiting a long time for?? Why yes, yes she can… as long as there is someone to pick up the pieces if things turn sour. :-)

Today we had our childcare center information session (they are building a childcare center next to our building). I filled out my pre-enrollment registration, wrote a nice letter explaining the unknowns of our situation and took it downstairs (with my check, of course). I wound up having a great conversation with the 2 directors. I explained my fabulous story of not knowing my child’s name, date of birth, age, when he’s coming home, etc… As much as I think they may have been thinking “ut oh”, they made it seem like it was not a problem at all, which left me feeling very good.

I told them that we may accept a slightly older child and could potentially have to work on the transition from Russian to English. I mentioned that, if so, I’d most likely want to have someone come in and work with my little boy on speech/language, development, etc… Their enthusiasm surprised me! Not only were they more than willing to have any specialist I needed come in, they also asked that the specialist(s) work with them for a short while so that can understand key words, signs, emotions, etc… It was very comforting to know that they’ll give my child special attention, if need be, but then also ensure he won’t be treated differently because he’s adopted. It’s a fine line.

Well, this weekend should be a bit tamer then the past few. I sometimes wonder to myself how I’m going to be able to juggle a toddler with everything else going on. Honestly, I have no answer, but will hopefully figure that out. I am learning that I need to say “no” more often when it comes to things that over extend me. What’s that saying? Knowing the problem is half the battle? We have a football game tonight (last regular season game which determines our playoff spot) and then nothing big planned! For that, I am very thankful!

It’s 1:50 and I’ve been at work since 9. Do you think it’s time for me to do some work now? Hmmm… I’ll just check blogs and FRUA first. I’m sure a lot has changed since I last checked it. 10 minutes ago. THEN, I’ll get to work. I promise.