A loss

This morning, we received a call that no one ever wants to receive. The kind of call where you feel like you're living in a parallel universe and you want to get back to reality as quickly as possible. Sabrina, Alex's mom, passed away unexpectedly in her home this morning. We aren't sure what happened, how it happened, etc... all we know is that it happened after she fell back asleep this morning. Her daughter found her - which makes it even more devastating.

We spent the day with her family waiting for her parents to fly in from Phoenix. I can't begin to tell you how hard this has been. To watch Alex go through losing someone - his first loss ever - and for that someone to be his mom is one of the worst things I've ever been through. Having lost my mom, it became even more hard because I was forced to deal with some feelings buried deep inside.

Alex is strong and he knows it hasn't fully hit him. He's being a rock for his little sister who is an emotional basket case. He's being strong for his Nanny and Papa because he knows how devastated they are to have lost their daughter who was only 45 years old. We just need to be as strong for Alex as we can be because at some point it will be his turn to break down.

Sabrina's mom said it best tonight. "She may not have been easy to get along with and she may have been difficult at times, but she sure did love those kids". And she did - with everything she had. We may have had our ups and downs with her, but it doesn't make this any easier. I've cried, I've gotten angry and then cried some more.

Please keep Alex in your thoughts and prayers. And his sister Kaylee. Being 15 and 10 years old, they have a long way to go in their grieving process. There will be so much that Keith and I can't answer and there will definitely be a void that we can't fill. I hope that Alex and Kaylee have nothing but great memories of their mom and that stays with them forever.

Life is short. Go hug your family and friends and tell them you love them.

Love,
Becky