We’re in the car on the way back from the orphanage. Keith is listening to his ipod and I’m blogging – need to get this all out on paper, partly for therapy and partly so I don’t forget.
Today. Totally. Sucked. (and it’s not even over)
The day started with both of us up by 5:15 (I had been up since 3). We showered, chatted with Alex on the phone and then headed to McD’s for breakfast. After that, we went in search of a supermarket. We bought a few gift bags to put our orphanage donations in and then headed back to the hotel. Our driver and translator were going to be picking us up at 10:00.
Keith and I headed outside to wait. At 10:15 we went back inside to see if we had any messages. Low and behold, our translator had been sitting in the lobby waiting for us. So, now we’re running 15 minutes late, but in our minds we’re an hour and 15 minutes late since we typically leave for the orphanage at 9:00. On the way to the orphanage we were stuck in horrible traffic. I think both of our nerves were shot – first from being so tired, second because we knew the longer we were in traffic the less time we would have with the Peanut and third because we had no idea what his reaction would be.
Fast forward after an hour and a half of bumpy roads, pollution and crazy drivers – we arrive at the orphanage at 11:50. Please keep in mind the kids eat lunch at 12:15/12:30. The orphanage director wasn’t there so we spent some time waiting for her or for someone to open a room. They proceed to tell us that there is an outbreak of chicken pox and the kids have been quarantined. According to the Peanut’s medical, he’s already had the chicken pox so we know he’ll be okay. They finally decide to put us in the pyschologist’s office and no one can manage to get it unlocked. After another 10 minutes, they get the door unlocked and we head to the room we’re very familiar with.
Imagine our surprise when we walk in and see piles of things everywhere – the room is under construction or something. It was a disaster - what a great place to play with a toddler. We barely have time to put our bags in before one of the caregivers walks in with the Peanut. Miserable, absolutely miserable. He was okay for the first few seconds and then started SCREAMING and CRYING. Not a normal cry but an ear shattering cry. The caregiver tried to calm him down but he would have nothing to do with it. We whipped out all of our weapons – cheerios, the hammer, stacking cups… you name it. No dice.
The caregiver left the room and he just sobbed and sobbed. You know that kind of cry when you can’t get a deep breath in? That was this little guy. I tried everything. Walking, bouncing, cuddling, shoving cheerios in his mouth (not really but the thought crossed my mind), laying down . Nothing worked. Then it turns out he lost a slipper and screamed bloody murder about that. Keith found it and put it back on. That settled the waterworks for oh… a minute. He seemed very warm to me (like he had a fever) but I couldn’t tell if it was because of the crying jag or because he didn’t feel well (turns out, I think he’s sick because once he calmed down he was still very warm).
I tried to hand him off to Keith but he clung to me and said “Nyet”. Oh, the look on my husband’s face broke my heart. We finally got him calmed down and he ate cheerios. Keith sat far away and video taped. I kept telling the Peanut to go see Papa and was met with a firm “Nyet”. After a little while he would go over and give Keith cheerios, but that was it. He spent most of the time on my lap eating. He popped some of the bubbles Keith was blowing but would shy away from him if he got near.
After a short while (and I mean short) he heard the clanging of dishes and knew it was lunchtime. That started the waterworks again. Thankfully, his caregiver came and took him away when she heard him screaming. Keith gathered our stuff faster than I’ve ever seen and we headed downstairs to where our translator was meeting with the orphanage director. She asked us how it went and we laughed – well, I did. Keith’s sense of humor was long gone and I can’t say I blame him.
She recommended we come see him at least once every 3 days but we plan on doing it more than that. At this point, if it breaks the budget and helps make our transition easier then oh well. Money is only money, right? Besides, Alex should be watering that money tree I have in the backyard while we’re gone.
My heart is broken for Keith – I know it’s typical, I know it happens to everyone, but you just have no idea how excited he was. There was nothing more he wanted then to hear that little belly laugh. I tried to tell him that maybe he was mad because we left but he’s convinced he didn’t remember us – and maybe he didn’t. It’s okay and it will be okay. Right? Right.
So, in typical guy fashion he is listening to his ipod and de-stressing. I on the other hand am ready for a glass of wine and a nap. Unfortunately, we need to go to the CSS office and then back to our hotel to prepare with our translator for court. It would have been much easier to prepare for court had we have had a good day!
Court tomorrow is at 10 instead of 11. We'll be leaving the hotel at 8:20 to get there. Keep us in your thoughts!
Becky
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So sorry you guys had a tough day today. We went through the same thing with Mateo the first few days. He much preferred Andres and he pretty much cried any time you moved or changed things for him. It will get better. I promise. For all of you. Once you settle into a routine that will help too. Big hugs for you all. L
So sorry it was a difficult day for you both. It does get better! You will be pleasantly surprised how much he will change once out of orphanage and in your arms forever. Good Luck with court!
Oh Becky - it's okay really! Easier said I know, but hang in there. It's good that he is leary of 'new' people instead of hugging any and everyone. I think seeing him more often during the wait will make things much easier - just tell Alex to be sure the money tree is good and wet - maybe add some miracle grow in there!! Thinking of you -
I'm so sorry to hear that the day was so bad Becky- I'm praying for you guys - hoping the little peanuts heart will soften to the love that you and Keith have for him! I think seeing the Peanut as often as you can during the 10 day wait will be the best unless your 10 day wait is waived. Keep your chin up! I'm sure the sun will come out tomorrow! Good luck at court and I agree with Rachel - make sure that Alex adds some miracle grow to the money tree!
Lots of hugs and prayers - MJ
Hi Becky! I am so sorry your visit didn't go as planned for you guys. It must have been double-hard with the traffic and finally getting there to find the room was in shambles. Don't worry at all about court - You guys will do great! I hope you get some well-needed rest and I am sure that the next vist with Peanut is going to be amazing! Hang in there!!
It sounds like he wasn't feeling good or he had just been woken from a nap? I am sure the next visit will go well. You two will be more rested and hopefully not have all the trouble getting to him next time so that you have more time to warm up. Everything is always better with sleep too! Get some rest and some good food and tomorrow will be a new day! for Peanut too- I am sure!
Prayers and hugs to you all!
ahhh... Our first melt down was when we were taking him from the baby home, so at least you were there. Yes, I agree see him as much as possible!!!
Mine is super weird about the shoe thing too!!! He still has melt downs if a flip flpo falls off. I wonder if it is a orphanage thing?
I'm so very sorry you had such an awful day - just when you need peace and calm to get ready for court too. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better for you. Good luck with court!
We went through some of the same things. Nicolas wanted to cling onto me and didn't really want Slade especially during our travels. At times, he would just take over and slowly but surely Nicolas started to go to him. Now he screams "Da-Da" when he walks in the door from work. Keith's day will come. The first day is rough -- so many emotions and jet lag ontop of that. Just like everyone before me has said -- it will get better!
Oh Becky, I'm so sorry for the stressful day. I know how hard it is to have everything planned so perfectly in your mind and for things to not go as well as you hoped. You are in our thoughts and prayers. The peanut will come around. It sounds like he was not feeling well with the added stress of being taken out of his element. I remember our daughter always listening for her caregiver or care group. They are so afraid that they will miss something that they feel more secure with their group. As long as she could see them (when we played outside), she was fine. In a confined room, she would look at the door and keep an eye/ear out for her caregiver. It is natural.
I hope court goes well for you tomorrow. Don't stress. The judges have already approved you and God had this planned, so it is just a formality. Easier said than done, right?
I hope tomorrow goes much better for you!!
Much love coming your way.
(((HUGS))) to both you & Keith. That sounds very familiar to our reunion story. Lots of tears, and it was a quick visit. I'm praying that seeing peanut several times over the next 10 days will increase his comfort level (I'm sure it will definitely help). Hang in there! And remember, this too, shall pass!!
I'm so sorry that this was less than an ideal day! But soon, you will be the Peanut's official mom and dad and things will start working. If he's getting sick, no wonder he was cranky! Things will get better!
I'm so sorry to hear that your reunion didn't go as expected. With time, it will all change and this day will just be a distant memory. Good luck at court tomorrow!
Welcome to our first week with Artem. Randy referred to himself as the pack mule who was just there to carry our stuff in and out of the baby home. Please tell Keith it will get better I promise!! Little "I don't even care one bit about papa" is all about dada now and won't even say mama. Those two constantly rassle with each other and play together and there are times I can't even get Artem to notice me, only dada!
Once you guys start visiting him more it will get better. Artem got very sick on our last two days with him and did nothing but cry on our last visit with him, which was not exactly the fairy tale ending we had in mind. But it got better and it will with you too.
You guys will do fine at court tomorrow. Good luck!
Whooo, what a fiasco! Poor Keith. Don't worry though, your court is tomorrow and you will never have to leave him for a long period EVER again. I'm sure he will start to warm up as you both visit him regularly. Plus, if he wasn't feeling well, of course he is going to be very fussy. Good luck in Court (Beck, save the wine drinking for AFTER court ha-ha)!
Renae and Joe
I am praying that when you see him again you will be met with a happy boy who is feeling well and wants his mama and his papa. I just said a prayer for you two and the peanut. I am really sorry it was such a rotten day. Things will get much better when he is with you all the time! Good luck with court!h
Oh my gosh, that day did indeed suck. Just think though, it can only get better!
I hear that the kids are fearful of men and I've warned my hubby - it will be interesting.
I'm sorry for you - it will all be over with soon...
I'm thinking about you guys - it's 8:20 here and so I think 5:20 a.m. there and you're probably sleeping and dreaming about your little man..or maybe court. BEST BEST BEST of luck with court!!
Hang in there. I know it is hard when you have a tough day. Believe me you will have some tough days at home too! Kaden is teething right now and had a fever this weekend. He was not happy and I could not get him calmed down and too sleep for a while. It was hard feeling completely helpless. I know how you feel. Just know that with the bad days do come good days. I have my fingers crossed that Peanut will suprise you next time with a good mood! Good luck in court. Just think soon you won't have to leave Peanut again. When he cries you can pick him up and know that he is with you forever.
I'm sorry to hear you had such a hard day. It is great that you all are staying in town for the 10 days so he can warm up to you over the next couple of weeks. Hang in there. It will get better. We'll continue praying for you all, especially for your court visit tomorrow!
Oh Becky, I am sorry today was tough. Just put yourself in his shoes, he was probably a little sick and scared. IT WILL get better, I can assure you that. Good luck with court!
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